you crave memories in my heart.

2009-12-31T13:37:00.002+08:00

HELOOOOOOOOOO!
hahahas soooryy fr being MIA fr soo long.Im jus plain lazy !>.< hahash
anw updatee fr my CUTEEE Nadiahhh Lingg ! hahas kidnapkidnap herr !(:
been out fr the whole week, masjid , shopping , campcraftt.
hahahs few more hours to 2010. im soo effing cnt wait.!(:
overnight at masjid was superbb. watchhh ORPHAN and crap the whole night.
didnt sleep much , i only had 1hr of sleep then off to sch fr campcraft.
was nt in the mood cause of SOME PPL. yehh effing unfair rite ?
watever i dun care anymore. ppl dun nd us , soo ? must we freaking care ?
Biasness aint never fair (:
anw the whole night smsing and crapping wif him. we bothh didnt sleep hahas till until 4 he knocked out. lol (:
counting down to meet my DARLINKS
hahas wheee. 2010 ily!
enthusiasm.
i've yet to complete all my hmwk. heck care.
erm erm erm. im posting soon okayy ? wanna jumpz (:

Maroon

2009-12-18T21:38:00.003+08:00

Gahhhs im suffering frm muscle cramps and you name it. Aft 1 hour of weight lifting at the gym just now , i am beat ! hoping im able to wake up early and go off tmr.
oh goshh wad hav i done. im jus being cruel and punishing myself before the new year strikes. countdown. looking fr it, hoping to hav a blast and wonderful year ahead. O's and strive for the best (:
ystd went out to dhoby wif kak zura & zila. walk around like some kind of fool to fine the mad jack restaurant. bt we found it. my expression was like " hah ! finally " and its not "paradise centre" bt "peace center" wth?
haha yesterday i didnt daydream much. infact today too. ohmy i miss daydreaming of things. u girls knw wht i mean *winks
had a blast phone conversation wif hidayat @ 1am ystd. like after jurassic years since we talked. hahas (:

ermmm wht else did i miss ? oh yeah the outing wif the JH, Mervin & Fifi to Ubin, was superb. trek around ubin and alsoo sightseeing. was fun and crazy. im being irratating as usual annd towards the end of the trek i fell. like badly ? bt thank god i was wearing jeans, protectd me frm injuries.

olright i want to watchh t.v
chiaoz
imiss AMALYNNAA && FFIFI!

Enlighted wif life

2009-12-14T22:55:00.002+08:00

I'm up to my high spirits nowadays. Perhaps its because of my beloved friends and those around me. They are all i think of now. I see rainbows and i see smiles.(:
everytime i think of it my heart beats faster and it felt like flowers bloom. Some things i put aside cause its irratating and just messing up with my mind.
Its really amazing, what i see of the things in front of me now, not like i used to. Im trying my best to be pessimistic. My days cant go any smoother and brighter.

You made me smile and laugh. far away bt close to my heart. i'll walk walk walk with u and run run run along wif the laughter. im dreaming and casting your shadowws (: huhuhu u amazed me and sometimes surprised me(: <33

Finally !

2009-12-14T21:30:00.004+08:00

Pheww ! finally i've updatedd. okayy perhaps this is the last time i'll update.

soo delighted that i manage to chat with someone(: hahas yess.

ystd was embarassing. well i'd tell my peeps.

imiss my darlingss. Amalinaaa, Fifi (: txted them nonstop today. And Rileyy(;

hahs okay ermm nth else. love YOUU bye.

2009-12-14T01:13:00.001+08:00

2009-12-14T01:11:00.001+08:00

Confessions

2009-12-14T00:52:00.003+08:00

Heloo omg sooryy blog been dead fr weeks.
been busyy. ann nw at 1 am i cnt sleep. waiting fr my bestie reply abt my tis worry and he didnts.-.- grr//.
thngs i did whn im away ( frm this blog)
*- Outings with my nephews
*- Shoppingg
*- Studyy like crazyy & tuitions.
*- Nco outing @ sentosa.
Moree to come or moree tht i missed ?

Everywhere and anywhere i go i tink of you.
Wondering what are we. well i enjoyed wad we are now. thanks fr being there fr me.
i talk to my frens abt it, think and even dream.
i dont hope much , im just glad we've met and i thank god fr it. Though thre others bt u're th one that i could think of. theres always time.
end a year more,im hoping we could meet again
being the way we are is jus great.

.-:
as fr youu, u told me jus nw, bt i hope u dun put any hopes on me coz i knw i would nt able to fulfilled it. im ordinary person that makes mistake, im nt using u bt i jus like this frenship.
i feel terrible everytime u said tt. bt sorry i jus cnt feel the same way.

Hoolaa!

2009-12-03T16:34:00.002+08:00

Heloo
ohhmiiGodd Soorryyee fr the latee updatee.
hahahs been soo busyyy & LAZZYYY to update.
preparing fr some stuffs and then hmwk , studies. alot
anw perak trip was BOOMZ! superr gerekk .. Me Fifi && Mervin was in the same group. oh well thx guys fr makin the trip an AWESOME one. well the caving was super fun.
hope to go more caving and water rafting (:
bt i gt my tann hahas. recovering well fr the tann though.
Went down to Melacca and shopp! hahah Erra wasss crazyyy to choose all those stuffs., and im super honoured to be their shopping advisor, help fifi chose th gelangs. haha nicee.

Hari raya haji was not badd, spent time wif the kambings, eww hahas lol. bt fun and gerek meet up wif them and talk ! didnt sleep the whole night luckily i didnt have eyebags which didnt spoil my hari raya day to look good.
had couple of trips to JB ystd and also on saturday wif my nephews. had sleepover. was super fun andd kecohh(: ohh well though it seems that i'vee been enjoying much i still do all my revisions. nver miss. hahas jus like the 11.30 show @ channel U. HOTT KOREAN guys.
(:

NEWWW MOON HERE I COMMEE !
Jacob Blackk is super freakin hot. lovee hiss BODY.! will be staring at it tmr ! lol !
hahas Chio. update in next few weeks ?
lol.

ShoutShop!

2009-11-14T20:44:00.002+08:00

I'm being randomm these days.

enjoyed my 'holidays' - went overnight @ the class chalet anddd watchh late night moviee.

ghostt storyy!

well the girls didnt want to watch soo left me anndd fiqahh & the guys .

we watchhh andd Kennethh wass damnnn funny, instead of screeaminggg, i laughed cause he made sounds and hes freak out.

ohh well fiqahh sleep at the starting of the movie. left me watchin till 3am. then everyone gv up

i wake her up and we went up to sleep. the rest played mahjong!.

Textedd hym till abt 1am, he watched horror movie too hahas funny.
ohh well gonna miss him , went to newzealand today. jus mins ago he txt before checkin in.
Hv safe trip!
i'll be away to perakk next week. one whole week.
goshh tiring.

Sidess todays went Johor instead of packin my freakin bag.
oh wow i shop like toot, anddd enjoyed myselff preety much.
gonnaa pack tmr i guess and startt doin holiday homework..
Mondayyy changeed plan, supposingly wanna watch moviee wiff Dayatt bt hes booked fr the last min . then jus gt to knw theres OBS meet up bt jyeah i cnt make it. gonna txt FionaDarls fr tt.
soo then last min ARnold's farewell dinner ?
cool.
im broke seriously, perhaps i watchh ppl eat, bsides i;ve been eating like SHIT these days andd i'ma seriously hope to be my old aneroxic me. nt much just 50percent.

olrifght gotta go . Loves!

Outing!

2009-10-23T21:36:00.011+08:00

wheeee ! just came back frm the outing.

went tampines malll , tamp one && centuryy squaree..crazyyy annd funn!.

we celebrate amalina's advance bdea. bought her chocolate cake.

yummy wass nicee. ate @ pastamania and create suchh noise. bt we're dining out soo we didnt disturb any customers.

me and darlink share food. ate lasagna(: ^^ yummy

Aidil , Habibul , Yusuff accompanied us shopping

and buy some pressie fr someone

crazyy & well unexpected prezzie. be preparedd *warned.

anw todayy we laugh alot , nt becox of those horny stuff like we talked abt during the raya , today was cleann. no hornyyz jus plain jokes

&& stupid act.

Aidill && Bull drop the cake nn its super selenge.

Nazurah too bt shes clumsyyand cute(:

hahas lol

Yusuff is great shopping companion. Advice me on which lotion to buy.

thankss !spent quite alot today. && looking forward fr tomorrow's dragon boating.mayb hang out again.

oh man its outrageous !

2009-10-23T10:58:00.002+08:00

helooo
okayy updatedd my blog, changed blogskins && nw posting
well this week is a tough week causee i gt to knw all the results & its devastating
nevertheless i wont give up, its jus some fatal mistakee that i will amend it .
no matter what it is , its already over.
ermm ystd wad boring andd weirdd hahas.
anyw goin out ltr @ 2pm to meet up wif the hunks & babes..
go tampines and eat pastamania. woooo!
hahas ermm next week last week of school
would be helping out in the pei hwa experience
&& missing the class outing ! boohoooo):
shopping again today.!
errmmmmmmm its beeen soo greatt
soon meeting up wif my OBS peeps. somewhere in nov.
next week goin fr STC @ ubin
grrr fun bt tiring
olright update the pics ltr !

muacks

2009-10-16T14:35:00.019+08:00

COUPLE OF THE DAY :

FIQAHH && Bul

Hiid & Dan

RUL & Lynnaa
____________________________________

BesT SHOTS:

Caught!*

My husbandd... lol ystd amalina's night. tonight is my turn !(:

LOVE THE EFFECT(: PREETY

HAHAHHA i rmbr smthh !(:* winks

Boyys @ my house !(:

Loveee youuuuuu!

Sweetestt memories!

2009-10-15T17:51:00.004+08:00

heloo !

omgg yesterday's raya outing was damn fun && outrageously 'giler' coz we kept teasing each other anddd alsooo talking abt .. '....' hahas winks*

wthh ehh all of us . lol bt anw its jus amg us. soo we took lots of picturess togetherr wif thousands of poses.

first stop all of them came to my hse .. super kecohh hahas took pic there , eatt- my mummy & me cook tgt hahas niice ?

hahas thn aft that went to the rest's houses. last hse was at tampines && we lepakk like hell. too tired. i endure walking in those stupid shoes . ( swear will never buy offer shoes)

okayy cabbed home && i cnt get on9 tooo tiredd & flat dead on bed.

hahs on the bus my favourite part.

Azan berkumandang frmm ... Adhir's phone & this time nt onli tell us its time to pray bt

alsoo...

hahas wheee amalina && fairull ystd was crazyy

im jealous.

ahahs bt i gt mine.. lol be a days' victim.

lol kena .. lol..

hahas okayy all the food was delicious & nicee

yusuff pakai th same colour as me && ppl tink we're wad ? haha bull thx fr nt telling ur mum that whn she asked u .. grr frens jek laaaa nnt mak kau pikir lain. ISH !

i loveeeeee yesterdayy !

its the best ever !

we couple2 kn eachh other .. hahas like crazyy && guess wad ? Habibul gt 2 !

ahshas anywayyy im soo tiredd nw wanna go off .. c ya ! mucksss

Breather!

2009-10-13T20:27:00.002+08:00

well hello

finally exams are over bt im not lookin foward too my results.

i knw i did quite bad though i studied hard, well i've tried my best.

im not hoping much.

oh well partyy time .. streess free- aside th results

anw tmr gonna have our sec 3E hari raya outing

yay fist stop my hsee. mummy cooking meehongkong fr u guyss yay!

hahas hvnt anythn im already excitedd.

ohhh yay amalina's mum gona cook mee rebuss wooo sedappp oii(:

sidess tmrs gonna be a long xciting and crazyyyy day

hahs kecohh confirm lahs.

ermm hahas sooriii ayee if i wear too glam lol tts jus me *winks * u knw wad i mean girls.

lol hahas

okayy xcitedd

ohh mann i miss Amalllyyynaaaaaaaaa laaaa!

2009-10-13T14:24:00.001+08:00

2009-10-13T14:23:00.001+08:00

2009-10-09T15:15:00.003+08:00

heyy

sorryy for being dead quiet fr a while.

exams on goin. Goodness im at maximum stress level.

ohh well schh been dryy fr the fact exams are going on for sec 3E this whole week && well some went well bt i think this time im not lucky to get gd results. ohmy goodness im praying hard.

anw been missing much abt my life uh ? didnt go out fr week except studying at home & MacD.

hahas nvm 2 more days & 4 more papers & im free!.

ermm anyways congrates to those who get promoted to SSGT including myself. as the restt noo worries we will get it as long as the project is done. JIA you !(:

Ohs feel guiltyy fr nt sms tt person lol.. i've been spending my sms too muchh && needd too save up, no worries will sms u soon , Wan(:.

blog soon. TC !

2009-09-24T21:31:00.002+08:00

Helloo

appologised for not updating for quite sometime.

been verry busyy studying.

oh well firstly SELAMAT HARI RAYA TOO ALL MUSLIMS.

Maaf Zahir & Batin kalau ader tersalahh kater atao ape2 yg tersinggungkn hatii.

okayy. gtg bye!

2009-09-14T20:25:00.000+08:00

2009-09-13T22:35:00.000+08:00

heloo.
its jus the end of the week
and tomorrow gonna be the start of school
a start of something new. really fresh and new.
wont be living in the past aint more cause its worthless.
thats all i cn say cause thousands of words are running in my mind now bt i aint able to express it.

mampukah diriku menempuh segala untukmu
biarpun ku terseksa, menitis airmata,
bawala diriku agar ia disismu,
cintaa..

wahai cinta dengarkn la rintihan ku yang ku rasa
kuberserah untuk berpisah..

2009-09-13T00:45:00.002+08:00

Myspace Layouts

Yes thats effing right

Myspace Layouts

(: smile will do

Exhausted !

2009-09-12T21:27:00.000+08:00

heloo sorry fr not posting fr soo long
been veryy busyy these days.
well heritage trail went well and great.
enjoyed it all the way.
today had CIP @ Ubin. wow was superbb fun
first time see all the sec 2 cadets soo happy. im glad that they are. love themm !
hahs ermm well heard some amusing stories these days bt im jus gonna leave it all
im concentrating on ma exams and thats all fr me(:
in the end i wont regret.
okayy bby gtg !

Long Darn Day.!

2009-09-08T22:55:00.003+08:00

helloo people.
im sooo tired now. exhausted frm all the running and rushing.
oh well todayyy been a longg and tiring day since mornin 8am.
well meet them @ CP 8am. well as per normal th GOH was late fr abt 10 mins.
hahs thn trained too Clark Quay and walked around like mad and plan fr the proposal fr tmr's heritage trail.
onli 4 of us ohh well.
jay-walked at a junction where theres many cars and it was darn scaryy i tell u.
lol F1 taxi ? hahas thx wei long.
ermm thn walked frm clark quay mrt to the singapore river, thn too the victoria hall and straight to padang area.
goshh was damn tiring and thirstyy !
(: followed the rest fr lunch and obviously me and Fiiqahhh did th proposal.
lol was at LJS and we were tempt!.
thn planned to buka tgt aftwards.
soo yeahh.
we after planning went backkk hm.
well nt hm xactly. i went to Mawaddah. painted like siaooo thn received a call tht theres an urgent meeting @ CP durin dinner time.
ring up all NCOS andd thanks all cnt make it. soo well went to CP fr buka at BK.
meet JH and we replan the improvised proposal ma'am gave.
soo yeahh we did some shopping fr tmr and did some 'artwork' fr an hour. went home arnd 9pm, do the logistics till nw. pheww im done finally. goshhh tiredd.
helping the rest.

seriously i tink im falling sickk, headaches ):

NEXT STOP : Heritage trail
time : 7.30am tmr.

LOVE!

Thinking of you.

2009-09-06T10:08:00.005+08:00

gooood morning !(: im early today aite ? well woke up fr sahur thn nvr sleep back till nw. Currently studying and homeworking. Doing chemistry-Ammonia ! (: my laptop is jus beside soo cn update and upload blogg. whee hahs. i miss youu ppl. ohhss nvm meeting thm tmr. maybe goin out to do some community work. weird bt i rather kill time thn sit and recall the painful memories. oh well here i go again . *slap.*slap. must forget it!
Jia youuu Hidd.!
Iloveyou!

If I could have just one wish,I would wish to wake up everydayto the sound of your breath on my neck,the warmth of your lips on my cheek,the touch of your fingers on my skin,and the feel of your heart beating with mine...Knowing that I could never find that feelingwith anyone other than you.

Truth Revealed

2009-09-05T14:34:00.001+08:00

helooo
am really boring now. basically trying to focus back to my work bt the comp is on soo yeahh.
ermm i really miss my frens..
1 whole week of holidays, ermm monday needa go back sch, wed get some heritage trail, thn ermm frii.
alternate days of wad ?
haiz sadd..
nvmm. ermm would be posting again

im tireddd of all this..its meaningless. hate me.

No surprise. saw it comin.

2009-09-04T23:56:00.001+08:00

I've practiced this for hours, gone round and round
And now I think that I've got it all down
And as I say it louder, I love how it sounds
Cause I'm not taking the easy way out
Not wrappin' this in ribbons
Shouldn't have to give a reason why

It's no surprise I won't be here tomorrow
I can't believe that I stayed till today
Yeah you and I will be a tough act to follow
But I know in time we'll find this was no surprise

It came out like a river once I let it out
When I thought that I wouldn't know how
Held onto it forever, just pushing it down
Felt so good to let go of it now
Not wrapping this in ribbons
Shouldn't have to give a reason why

It's no surprise I won't be here tomorrow
I can't believe that I stayed till today
There's nothing here in this heart left to borrow
There's nothing here in this soul left to say

Don't be surprised when we hate this tomorrow
God knows we tried to find an easier way
Yeah you and I will be a tough act to follow
But I know in time we'll find this was no surprise

Our favorite place we used to go
The warm embrace that no one knows
The loving look that's left your eyes
That's why this comes as no,
As no surprise

If I could see the future and how this plays out
I bet it's better than where we are now
But after going through this
It's easier to see the reason why

It's no surprise I won't be here tomorrow
I can't believe that I stayed till today
(stayed till today)
Yeah you and I will be a tough act to follow
But I know in time we'll find this was no surprise

Our favorite place we used to go
The warm embrace that no one knows
The loving look that's left your eyes
But I know in time we'll find this was no surprise

Its up to you.

2009-09-04T20:17:00.001+08:00

todays SSGT test was disasterous. i wasnt prepared for the test at all due to th heavy workload.
haizz well kinda nt in th mood fr NP cause i wasnt prepare fr any promotion test plus
the schedule stuff gave me pressure, soo anyone who think that i was showing attitude at you personally for watever reasons let me tell u smth. i hate my results and it suck although i passed everythin, furthermore i was too tensed up of the promotion test MINE. soo dear cadets i didnt scold you guys today fr any reasons. i think i simply much kept quiet. if anyone think i givin u attitude , i appologise.
please for your info i dont bring personal probs to school. teachers thought so too haiz wadever la .
ppl cn hate me all you wan , wht i knw i go to sch to study and gain knowledge. i never expected those words frm your mouth. oh well nvm i knw how much u hate me now.
thanks for adding to the ache and pain in my heart.
i wouldnt trust any guys or sweet talks anymore cause i knw waht the ending of the story would turn to , the same say as it did. i thought i would be better bt no its worst. i made th line to be nice bt i tink you took it wrongly nvm i understand you. im jus givin in cause it seems that you blame me. thanks.

I HATE YOUU !

Right here waiting.

2009-09-03T22:41:00.001+08:00

Heloo !
tmr gonna be a long & unmeaning ful day. why ?
well let me tell u why. firstly i hve some freakin tiring CCA-staff sergeant test urgh!.
need supporters lol. sure flunk nvr studyy.
secondly its unmeaningful as i knw tis test is jus a gimmick , wont get promoted.
okayy im screwing my life as days goes by. homewk is unbelieveable.
soo much load !
arghh.

We're practically over..

2009-09-02T17:31:00.002+08:00

Hello. jus came back frm sch. kinda tired and restless fr some reasons.
didnt sleep the whole of last night except for a 2hr nap at 2.30AM !
goshh.!
school is unusually boring and sleepy, slept during the last two period.
have tons of hmwks to do in which tmr is the DATELINE.
oh well.

now we're over, i felt terrible to make a decision like that, i felt devastated too bt part of me felt better as its the onli way. i always believe that if we're meant to be then we'll be destined in the future but if it jus ends here, i really hope u would accept me as a fren. i dun wan a broken relationship to jus end and become enemies. its childish and selfish to do it that way. oh well those songs are indeed touchin and meaningfull. bt fr nw jus let it be.

thanks to u.toot happi nw?
im blaming u fr all tis ladyy, u brought it all
its nt helping bt destruction instead. thx appreciate it lots.=.=
pluss i address u as ladyy okayy ? i have moral and brains.
jus wahtever okayy i dun gv a damn, u wan him take uh so ?. i gt better things to do. tis is jus the last post im gonna mention abt u or whtever okayy ? common be civilised.

2009-09-01T21:23:00.001+08:00

Tis love is a battlefield

2009-08-31T22:34:00.000+08:00

heyy todays teachers day && i wanna wish all teacher a veryy splendid HAPPY TEACHERS DAY !
summarising everythin, actually nth much happen in sch jus basically went fr the teachers celebration
&& Pei Hwa idol goes too our one and only MIRZA DANIAL.(:!
CONGRATESS !. he sang Hearless. goshhh damnnnnnn nice, perfect && superbb touchin
hahas okayy stop it.
humpp. im jus soo over it and continueing my life bt u seems cnt to go on without me.
i felt confuse which path to choose bt wht i knw i wan to ignore and let it be hanggin'
tmr will go out wiff...(:
hahas ystd went to tampines mall, century square and tempiness 1 wif my sister
she bought me everythin frm bag,earings, shoes, accessories stuffs
thxx sis ! ily !
hahs okayy gtg bye !

Im jus fading away.

2009-08-27T21:31:00.003+08:00

To someone,

you said you wanted to stand firm bside me, to what i see it seems that u are trying to get away, you might not knw the reason wht lead to all this. believe me neither do i. bt i guess you asked for it.
u seems nt to care fine i dun care too..
you wanna seek advice frm some random ppl go ahead..
WADEVER okayy, i dun lose a thing. perhaps jus hurt by u. cox i cnt get over it. bt i must coz u juss take advantage of me, im nt ur spare or anythin dun even try to treat me as one.
you cn do wad u wan cox i jus cnt stop you, im jus nth rmbr.
perhaps u always think i treat u badly bt listen here, u ought to think that you alway hav this thinking tt i ignore u, c'mon i too wanna talk to my best frens and stuff, wht would they say if i always ignore thm and be wif uu ?
i aint a superhuman who can multi-task. im sorry to said tis in a harsh way bt u jus caught me off the boundaries and i cnt take it any further thn to vomit all things in my mind.
your smses were'nt like those before, whn i cm back u didnt txt me, well perhaps its jus partyly may fault tt i did reply to the sms u gv jus becox i was sleepin till th next day. well u might not think i dunno bt it seems impossible. i will wait perhaps ? or perhaps its jus meant to be.
well if u mean wad u say thn shw it.
if nt i would appreciate u jus kept it quiet.
cox i tink u gt better suitors rite ? fine, i still do love u bt u dun care. i knw u have someone else soo fine.
i hope tis is wht u always wanted to hear rite ? u hate me ? say it.
its okayy im bearing wif everythin
go to her thn, perhaps shes better thn i am rite. okayy its okayy. i cn go on wif my life. guess shes fuckingly in love wif u too. u're unbelieveable. no wonder u dun bother to sms or even try to solve tis cox u gt someone else.
humpp GO TO HELL.

i dun practically wanna solve tis cox u took advantages over and over again. i aint crawling back aft being stepped to death.
if u mean wad u said thn prove it otherwise Jus FORGET IT
tis is who i am straight, and FIRM. , YOU made me to be tis so well accept it dude.
.(:

Those memories are incredible and loved !

2009-08-26T20:41:00.000+08:00

Heloo !
first thing first wanna appologise for not updating fr soo long after i came back from OBS camp.
i had to rushh certain things. homeworks and stuff.
oh well would nt talk abt it much.
OBS course was indeed an adventurous and superb camp, had lots of kind friends who taught me wonderful skills and knowledge. it wasnt diff to socalize or make the first move to go around and introduce myself. well i've did that thousands of times. (:
we arrived early at punggol jetty and had to settle some admin staff before we hoped onto the boat.
was great to see everyone gathering and theres two chinese girls sitting in front of me, they're my grp mates.
well i talked to them introducing myself and within minutes we were laughing away and even go to the toilet , all places together. hahas express huh ?
its really a long sequence of events to type about bt i aint doin that
kinda wanna to keep it to myself cox its jus too long.
throughout the camp i learnt many usefull knowledge that i relate to my life.
its was heartbreakin durin the last nite. i cried several times, jus too touchin. i rmbred those memories for life. we cooked and Laughed and we joked!
ohs i miss my Darlings Hazel && Fionn. they're like sisters to me durin the camp.
ohh well i hav to go now.

Soon !

i'm Falling fr you pls don't go.(:

2009-08-14T22:20:00.001+08:00

heloo !
todays training was superb. wow sec twos relly behave today, soo happy hahas:) aww next week migght nt comin fr trainin && see my bestiess or the Np peeps.
Goin OBS fr the whole of next week
sure hectic. i've yet to pack, will be packin aft tis. cause someone kept reminded me . aww thx (:
aft training went dinner wif Cliques H.A.N.A. aft such long time we nvrr went to suchhh impressive occasion, aww girls thx fr spending the last day wif me
i will miss u truckkloadds.
Amaleenaa bby nvr seiii i parted wif youuu-takecare kayy studyy hardd & snatch ur no. 2 and 3 !
,, Nazurahh dearr mustt alwayss takecare of ur health-eat ur medicine tao !
Afiqahhh darls noo worries i will eat okayy && i will come home safely, study hard andd if u kena call dog complain to me whn i come back. i will kill tt person. lol(:

OKAYYYY wishh me luckk
i love YOUU guyss !

&& yeshh to winks wink* - i will miss you too (:
i will txt u guys on mon before i go, arnd 6 plus.
TC !muackss!

GET A LIFE !

2009-08-13T22:09:00.001+08:00

heyy.
yeahh afew more days till im off.
counting the days
ermmm im gonna miss my bestiess !
goshh they giving me a farewell dinner tmr
hhas excited bt tis is jus among us.
well yeahh.
ermm tis week been toughh studyy like crap, haizz and some effing ppl giv me crp
i hate to say this bt seriously pls dun spoil my reputation, i aint gonna even layan all tis nonsence
get it ? step over my head over and over again and i kept quiet. nw i am talking so listen well.
im nt starting any fight bt we'll settle aft i come back, i mean aft my top priority C.T over on wednesday.
FOR GOD SAKE i dun get u.if u dun tell me cox u dun wan me to get worry , i dun mind cox i dun wan to hear either.
(:

FUCK.

2009-08-11T20:41:00.001+08:00

getting on my nerves.

2009-08-09T15:17:00.001+08:00

helooo.
finally manage to update my blog andd created FB.
did i already meantion it ? yesh i guess.
hahas. ermm well im so freaking out nw. studies studies. tts my firstt priority && nth else.
well gt lots to catch up before goin to OBS which unfortunately falls on the common test week.
wth rite? will be missing much in schh esp my fren. ohh babes im gonna miss u guys!.
muust miss me too okay ? && dun forget to tell me wad i missed whn i cm back.
hahas lame lah Hid.

oh well HAPPY NATIONAL DAY !(:
should start with that one.
just had tution. fun !
thn may be goin out today and tmr ?
wanna prepare some pathetic camp stuffs.
&& relieve my stress.
huh prnts wann brg me to watch the fireworks. kinda lame to me.
i dun celebrate much .
oh well byee.
btw I wan to upload my pictures ! arghh thankss blogger fr nt able to. ! :x'

im jus soo irratated not pissed off wif certain stuff.
getting on my way
and making me look like a FOOL plus a Effing person
who gets step over and over again.
why am i so vulnerable.
its undenial that its the truth.
oh jus Fuck up.

2009-08-08T13:41:00.001+08:00

2009-08-08T13:38:00.000+08:00

Myspace Layouts

2009-08-07T22:57:00.000+08:00

todayy ndp was a kind of event.
i SCREWD up. hate my self soo dissapointed.
tts all.
pissed.
stupid blogg. cnt tis cnt tt.

2009-08-05T21:43:00.001+08:00

2009-08-05T21:16:00.000+08:00

helooo ppl
sorri fr nt updating fr soo long lol i knw hw NOOB i am.
oh well juss too busy and tired.
theres multiple activities goin on
&& can u believe it that todayy i had my SPA , as in chemistry practical fr the O' level ?
well turn out nt soo bad i guess onli the part all of us have different answers.
skip on that, had no assembly soo went straight to class.
oh im jus been too tired these days and have been doozingg off.

goshh i miss someone ! (: at random. and the image i like jus infront of me.
oh gosh. Amalina help me ?
advice ? hahas i noe u insist on me creating FB . i knw im like out ? everyone have FB excepy me ?
hahas im jus lazy you see ? besides i dun have time to update. haizz inshallah.

aft sch went to Yio Chukang Stadium. marchh like never before.
drills sucks. we played all along & i tink i better watchh my langkah cox i jus feel weird marching today. lol y ? no answer.
had talk too amalina darling. goodness we bothh jus made a wrong move and a wrong choice i guess? cn i put it tt wad dear ? hahas okayy i blom habis cakp seii ngn u. hahas okayy we gt the whole time in the world.
oh well i better go nw .
tmr would be posting.
im running my Amath hmwk.

.Hidayahh love you !

2009-08-02T12:03:00.001+08:00

Secret,..Love-Betrayed

2009-07-27T19:55:00.001+08:00

Im loving the life

2009-07-27T19:47:00.000+08:00

ohss heloo !
okayy today is monday and guess wht ?
im sooo happy fr dunno wht reason. i've been hyper and smile all day
bt i knw it wont last long esp aft my upcoming tests. goin to GV to watch FOOD INC. fr Geography ? random bt its the truth
goodness.
haiz tmr will have meeting andd argh im soo piss off with some ppl that is soo persistant of some things. might not want to eleborate more.
goooeyyy im comin late tmr gt physics ace
GAGAGAGA.
im a LADY GAGA ADDICT !
random.
OHH i miss bby alot !.
hahas didnt manage to go hm wif him today. bt he treat me milo again aft i refuse to go recess cox i gt alot of undone work. bby was worry abt me. thx bby ! ily !
hahas okayy i've done all my work bt nt revision. WTH ? well revise revise bt like nth go into my mind. argh im BLOCK minded !!

STRESSSSSSSSSSSSS!

2009-07-25T23:21:00.001+08:00

heloo ppl.
well been too busy to even update.
test and revisions ? too much hmwk till gt no time to revise nt that im slackin onli that i feel that way.soo if u think im lazy then wait till u're in my shoes thn u cn have the heart to say so.
yesterday wad a huge massive fallout. well i dun noe the real truth . perhaps true? no ?
bt wadever it is i hope you juniors would understnd and forget it. well i will chnge the teachin method. dun worry, i'll try my best. u cn hate me if u wan bt i will try not to shout or watsoever.

ohh magic im tired.

2009-07-18T20:43:00.002+08:00

hey
today was indeed a great fun competition. had fun throughout the comp wiff all my stupid childdishh jokes which irratate my members heeee (: hahas RONALD ! you're freaking late
sorryy that we had to leave u and go to Suntec cause we're goddamn hungry. thenn when the comp starts we runn like semangat lah kn. then in the end we felt too tired and decided to walk and enjoy the trip. well we had our goals. which was to complete at least 10 stations. in which we sui sui gt. hahas okayy cool.
soo wht win or lose ? experience it indeed the important thing fr us.
well im too tired to even do enythin nw
my whole bodyy aching like crazy.
i wonder wht it would be tmr. mayb i cnt even walk.
imagine we brish walk frm kampong glam to little india ????
ohh goodness.
i'd upload pic soon
soo byee im tired !

2009-07-16T20:35:00.007+08:00

this week is indeed a tiring and hectic week. i cant wait to pass this week and any other weeks.

i jus wish to have holidays soon. soo dead tired and did not have enough sleep, rest all you can name it. even did nt have time to socialize. what a life. anyways basically this week been doin revision fr test in whichh i extremely regretted to ans a wrong ans. im practically dead. that all that i can say. 3 test pass or perhaps 4 ? who cares. all i noe i fluck all.

i did nothing to satisfy myself, onli made myself felt regret and sick.

why.

okay. i miss alot of peope, Farhana , Amalina, Kak Azura , Azila !

goodnedd whn cn i ever see them again ?

ahahs . tmr perhaps ?

oh well . tight schedule.

i sympathy you for all you gone through.
i can see the tears in your eyes to lost everything u wanted.
when you told me , i put myself in ur shoes and i cnt imagine wht to do if i were u
just be strong.

happi belated anniversaryy bby !

2009-07-11T22:24:00.003+08:00

10 April 2008

Marks a day full of memories and historical. jus like a rose or flowers, frm seed to seedlings, as daays goes by its reached its adulthood. Bright red colour. Definately my favourite, a symbbol of love & trust . jus like the flowers it blooms brightly and proudly. Linked it with the life of the flowers. A drop of seed onto the brownn soil and with nature, its being natured and watered with love. it then grows into seedlings, small but healthy. Imagine a flowers life cycle, during summer its petals drop like snows. During winter it freezes in cold and remain lifeless. Similiarly, like our relationship bby, it relly went off well. we were in love and our days were full of smiles. but thers times whn we had a tiff and it went all wrong. I was dissapointed and hurt , i kept everything to myself till it bottled up and to a point tt i jus burst out. But bby u answered to all un unanswerd qs & ur hard effort to win my trust and heart back. it took me days. i was like on a cliff , at the verge of letting go and leave to fate. but once again im realistic to think. we manage to pull it through. and things restarts like it always does. nevertherless , u made me learn alot of things. u made me strong and understand wad trust means. bby thanks. i love u !

HAPPI 14 MONTH ANNIVERSARYY !

2009-07-08T21:01:00.002+08:00

HOMEWORKING NOW.

todayyy had ICT. was super bored , same grp as. its okayy. i talkd but ppl jus seems mcm tk rase guilty . suke hati uh okayy.
bby waited fr me . thx dearest.
went back together., bt today was different.
daddy calld he said they were @ jln kayu eating . soo i so called meet thm there and in a way walk bby home.
hahas was fun.
anyway homework is ridiculous && this weekend would be spending time on CIP.
congrates.
Far.H.A.N.A rocks ! love them !
nt forgetting my dear too !(: okayy did i told u that deaar gave me a teddy bear fr out anni ? was super cute. havnt had time to buy him anythin bt i would sometime tmr. lets pray tt tmr would nt have much hmwk.
okayy. *wosssh*!

ohhs bby i love you

2009-07-06T21:59:00.002+08:00

Okayy ppl my second nw. actually im stress wif my workload

bt im proud of myself that i've done most of it & now chatting wif Amalinaaa lovee !

we're in LOVE deeply.

hahas like im saying " OHH bby my Anniversaryy is tis fri "

&& hers was on 14 ! ahhas jia yos fr us .

we're nw in real reality. we have beloved family tt supports us.

each other tt loveee nvr endss ..other bestiess Naz, Atika

&&& Mostly ourr superb understsdingg boyfee tt love us all the way. goodness its the richness of life.

okayy thnn we're like love pros

advicing each other ... ermm wad else.

talk abt life

LOVE.

Studies.

wow. colourful

Thers thes sentence tt i said && she love it ...(:
"every prob have solution "

okayy post soon. i miss my bby !

txting him despite the dozens of sms.

ILOVE AMALINA !

Sweat it out !

2009-07-06T18:54:00.003+08:00

Todaeeee is mondayy bt theres no school ! cause it youth day !
omg like cool !
hahas well been slacking around like hell bt still doin work.. went out todayyy && meet myDearr @ cp we talked && slack at MacD. oh well i love him alot !
miss bby alot too !.
went to Acc & he accompanied me . then abt 30 mins i had to go
so said goodbyee to dear.
went play Badmintonn @ the hall . huuuuuu spent my time smackin .
pllay doubles wif the guys, the won of cause.
hahahs
soo nth much went home & doinn my mly hmwk argh
in which i've yet to do
toot.!
ohhh yess met faris.
hahas funny uh he...
okayy blogggayee sooon

(:

Bby u're mine.

2009-07-04T00:28:00.003+08:00

okay nw come to my life.
hahas. ohh well nowadays so diff to talk or sms dear cause i needa save my sms & class are diff timings now.
i miss him . he went to class early tis morning & we talked
he was worried of my eating diet
dun worry dear ? i tryy have proper diet.
dear gve me his thumbdrive to see smth inside that he made fr me the whole night.
omg dear u're soo sweet. ily!
its 4 slides. soo sweet, poems(:
hahas. whee soo happy. thnn i think i'll reply soon if i gt time(: i cn compose(:
one of it :

I’ve been searching my for my life for the meaning of love and how does it feel being in love with somebody. I’ve been surrounded by happy couples, but me, i was walking alone... I thought that there was no love for me until the day you came into my life. The sweetness of love you gave to me is even more then what i’ve imagined before. You been the inspiration for me to live and be a better person.
A lifetime is not enough to love you, it takes more. But, all of these days i’ve been through with you is such a pleasant memory that i can’t ever forget.
I want to love you more and more everyday. Thanks for being the most precious treasures i’ve everr had...

_________________________________________________________________________
isnt it sweet ? heheehe(: okayy before i make ppl puke better stop saying anythin lol.

Dearr , whether rain or shine, i'll always be there awaits,
although sometimes im hurt, i'll pretend to smile
knowing whatever happen it cn be solved.
thanks fr ur love.
u're so kind and caring.
just let bygones be bygones

get a life !

2009-07-04T00:13:00.004+08:00

its been quite some time i've not been blogging. basically held up with my stuffs && activities. bt that doesnt really bothers me.
well i did'nt did much these days besides went to school, take temperature yadayadayada...
im soo happy to meet BESTIES ! Bffs && Dearr .
malay lesson always crapp around wiff Mengs, Cha0Ciirull , Adhirr && Amal, Naz
todayy was greatt, actuall plan wass to meet the peeps and settler some stuff bt i gt to rush to mosque. bt nvm meet Akak. miss her man !
hahas went back wif Farhana. i love her okayy
shesss my bestestttt Junior !
haizz. didnt went back wif dear today cox he was wif the rest to cp.
soo went wif Farhana.
meet haikel Jens && Iman @ bstp, talk2 thn they're craps starts, bt cool.
okay skipp the tinny detail.
Im kinda piss of right now nt kinda bt really pissd off nw.

Its just that SOMEONE who tried to test my patience and sms me with unmeaningful words and with vulgar word. soo tk perlu.
oh pls be at lease a gentleman.
INVESTIGATE first whooo tht says tht
if u think i said that then so be it
u cn do anythin. soo damn piss off, i told Amalenna darlink
&& i cn imagine the smoke frm her ears kuar(:
.like oh man common lahh dude be realistic . dun be paranoid, u're barking the wrong tree.
besides sms me during nite in which i was relaxing.
argh. i'll see wht happen.
told bby & he will do the necessaryy if anything gone wrong. i swear nt only him
there's other guards of mine AWAITS.
dun test me.

2009-06-30T21:12:00.003+08:00

OhMY i'm feeling weak and tired. perhaps of the heavy workload previous days &late night sleep.
im hoping to get enough sleep today provided i've done my stuff. i've been smsing to release my stress and im goin to use up all my free sms soon enough.
todays lesson was fine and i could tolerate it.
chemistry changed teacher & emath.
well the teachers are great & i could understand what they are teaching.
today starts a new chapter for physics.
was interesting bt as usual a bit confuse bt will gt it soon.
okay im retiring now.

type soon(:

2009-06-29T21:31:00.001+08:00

in SERIOUS need of help

doin Social Studies && dunno wht to write on. oh well sch sucks.

HARPERS ISLAND NO.1 FAN (:

2009-06-28T21:32:00.005+08:00

ohmyy ! im countinggg hourss to schh ! && meet all my peeps !

miss them alot esp him (:

ookayy im DONE wif my 52 amath qs. relieved ! *phewwwwww...

left ss essay 1 which am not doin.

im waiting fr harpers island .. Sleepy though

bt its my fav soo id wait lol.

(: soo into it. HARPERS ISLAND ROCKK MY ASS OFF.

i fuckin love Pink col'!

2009-06-27T22:49:00.005+08:00

this is during class outing.; Ps : I DONT EAT TIS ALL. ONLI A PIECE.
Ouuuhhhh soo rmbr tiss eatt Wiff AMALEEENAAA BABE !

oheheewhhee!

okayy sorrry fr the lost of ystd.

well yesterday was a hell of a day , went to mosque to help out fr friday prayers. sold EVERYTHIN. hahas biase look whose selling. okayy saw many ppl and definite tt person. grr soo sombong, & im soo nt gonna see tt face; hope so (;

skip tt mornin part ,; went to vivo and hang out as usual was late afternoon though

catch a 6 o'clock show. wanted to watch transformers btt HECK was full booked. tk kn nk tgk midnite movee aitee ?

hahhas thnn watchh LAND OF THE LOST . even before tt we're lost of wad show tt was.

kekek and seriously NC16

eeew. hahas cool jugakk lehh.

hahas

ermmm i was crazyy ystdd && laughh alll the waee

hahas im still hype now . oh well .

counting to day to meet bffs && myyy sayangg

GOSSIP GIRLS

2009-06-25T21:34:00.004+08:00

like wow changed ! was shocked!. goodnesss ... i cn jus smile. ( wink*) whoever cn understnd wad i say//.

Heckk im tired of all homework .! i've been rushing through all my homeworks anddd by todaee !. soo sleeping late as usual. MyDear will suree would not agree ayee ? no worries dear (:

hahas goodness chatting wif Amaleeeeeeena. lol shes darn funny aite ?

we talk Like Gossip Girls. hahas should name us tt. bt we're cool okayy. Im missng her.

ohhss hopee tt sch would nt be as bad coz Swine flu. Pray no one get it aite ?

keep'in it short.

Hiidayahhh was Heree ..

Sparks of truth.

2009-06-23T22:53:00.006+08:00

Its kinda true, sometimes when u feel u're aone u're not. but when u feel people are around u, you'd be prooven wrong. Life is complicated. u have to accept certan facts though its not what u expect the outcome would be like. whenever u feel u have a wonderful time, moments , just stop and think that all it is jus momentary. Unlike fantasy. never mixed up fantasy wif reality. i'd assure u that you'll regret. (:

random post(:

i misss youuu Hadii

2009-06-23T19:12:00.004+08:00

HELOOO !

okayy ppl im juss crapping around. basically boredd. erm2

nth much todaee jus went out with AMALEENAAA && undelibrately brought he SS bk hm. lol returning to her tmr. perhaps th book wan me to meet her again.

nww at al-mawaddah. hahas hanging around and do the hmwkS. grr lots more to goo grr.

okayy gtg will update snn.

bye FOLKS.(;

GOSHH IMY !

it all over now.

2009-06-21T12:31:00.004+08:00

Oheeeeelooooss!

oh gosshh soo longs since i've updatedd. darnn busyy uhhh. soo my blog getting dead eachh day.

well thx to those hmwks andd assigments whichh i've yet to finish it.

holss are greatt with the exception that i miss many ppl !

Amalinaa !! Afiqahh !! && Atikaa !!

mostly my dearr Hadii .. oh weell sadd);

lettme tell youu wahtt i basically done this whole week ya ___

Monday :

What cn i rmbr ? oh ya went to do geog projecct withh Afiqahhh andd some other peeps. went to National Libraryy thn we did researchh like madd there. i took alot of books and made myself copy the infos there though i dunno wht the heckk im doin && wht its abt. ohh well.

Tuesdayy :

Went movie-ing with Taufiq dearr @ Plaza Sing. watchhh Drag me to Hell. Goshh i soo recommendf u ppl to watchh except those who have faint heart. itss scarry andd full of suspencee. geng3...

hahas aft tht i went shoppin andd he waited fr me outsidee(: Thxx !

we walked along orchardd && had dinner @Robinsonss.

lotss of funn ! wheee ..

Wednesdayy:

nth muchh actually jus basically went to JB wif parents andd shop wif mummyy (: love shopping. im becomin more of a shopaholic. then went backk and receive txt frm kak azura. went to masjid straight and lepakk .. well nt exactlyy had meeting fr mySpex thingy. and saw many ppl including the soccer peeps. (:

Thursday :

Went to Bugis again wif Afiqahh && do projectt . Kennethh last min said he cnt make it and tts make the two of us. In the library my stomachh growll like siao. soo decided to end early since nthh muchh we found. thennn went around bugis like mad & we saw belts !

crazy over themm && wantd to buy bt no moneyy. soo fiqahh saidd to come th nxt dayy since gt class outing. okayy thhnn

Fridayy :

Meet my sayanggg @ cp and we went drinkin at Banquet. no ppl there soo its soo sunyii. well goshh i miss him soo muchh aftt long busyness. thnn 15 mins later fiqahhh came and we hang out before meeting the calss. Dearr talk2 thn im off to Sakura @ downtown. eat soo much food. well i took those food tt i feel like eating. soo thn we laughh like hell watchin Yi ling eat lots of food plate aft plate. cute lurh ! hahas thn we watch movie again. actually wanted to go K-box bt too ex. watch drag me to hell again . lucky we didnt throw out all the food we eat. before tt we played games at archade. lol. thn me and fiqahh off to bugis and buy belts. weee fun3.

Saturday :

oh great like wow i woke up soo earlyy and off to masid like ustaz asked and we onli board the bus at 9.30 ?

lol me, Arini, Kak Azura , Azila was like deadd during the launchin of mySpex and the talk wad dreadful lol. had the bowling competition @ west bowl. && i suck at first lol . the ball kept goin longkang. bt second round towards the end i strike twicee andd score !

hahas went home jus in time fr tuition. Lol Adlin wass fuun !

Sunday :

now im blogging like duhhh .. hahas. today is all-homework day(:

INACTIVE

2009-06-19T01:26:00.001+08:00

HELOOO
sorii for being mute && inactivee
i've beenn TOOOOO busyy to even get online !
ohhhmann! i miss amalinaaaa dearr ! soo long nverr meet or talkkk.
darllss imy !
hahas okayy im like chiongin my hmwks... lol LMS etc in the middle of the nite
well2 look at the time nw. nt sleepin tonite.(;
sat is the comp .
wish me luck
okayy update more tmr
(:

Confussion && Tiredness

2009-06-08T20:59:00.004+08:00

ohhs jus came back frm 30 hrs camp twoo days ago
&& like having leadership course at PHS fr two consecutive long days.
gosh im dead.
jus received sms tht theres JK, dun feel like even goin.
thurs i gt training.
haizz gonna break my arms soon
had terrible bang and hit my foot ystd !
hahas hilariously dangerous.

im listening to songs
it sways and swirls
i jus keep moving.
wonders the complications && hw tired i am
hw miserable it seems
i wish and i hope
im jus listening
the melody, the love
ohs i jus waiting. stand rooted to the ground
mind nver changes
someday i jus wake up and wonder in space
that when reality would knock me down
im nt moovin
im not believin
running into the corner. hiding behind the curtains
oh its jus a lie
ohs its jus a pretendence
im singin and i'd jus aint stopin
babyy its here and gone
all tht come had vanish in thin air; left heartbreaks alone.
eyes are deceiving
ears are defending , the mind jus believin.
im falling like a smoky air.

2009-06-02T21:14:00.003+08:00

Theres ups and downs .

theres smiles and tears.

all i knw i've been living in fear and lies..

now i've seen the colours of life.

i'm able to visual .

i'm able to brg myself to reality..

all the things ive knw soo far is deceiving.

i aint gonna take a chance.

i will persue and seek happiness.

for all i know , i gt nothing to lose..

wheeee!imiss thm

2009-06-01T18:44:00.001+08:00

helooo sorryy fr not posting fr soo long !
hahas fri, sat been slacking around.
homework hvnt do yet soon perhaps. gt courses and lots of npcc activitiess haiz.
erm tmr got shooting course, dunno wht the results be bt im sure the girls and the boys cn do it go PH NPCC unit !
omgg i missss Amalinnnaa ! Afiqahhh !! ATikaaa !! && Nazurahh!
hahas Hope to see thn soon .
FEW MORE hourss whee !
ilyy !

i dont giv a damn !

2009-05-27T20:58:00.003+08:00

homework on the run !
tons of hmwk to doo and projects.
goshhh im beaten off. jus now had class outing , career thingy. was fun and i enjoyed th whole trip.
skip assembly && geog period... thank goodness.
tmr is PTM. wooo scaryy. arghh bt whts the point i alr knw the results.
all suckss.
no Bs , 3 As and the rest Cs ? fuck rite.
hahas bt at least pass all pheww.
well called kak azura jus nw.
she sound soo sweet.
i love her okayy.
meeting her soon.
cnt wait.
i wannaa skip tmr
fri np day!
&& im the CC that would lead them to the Bball court. hope everything gonna be fine.
nww i screwwd up. dunno how to do the project.
afiqahhh where u ??! i need u to help lol !
frantic cries ! bt who will hear ?
GOD (:
erm erm wht else?
well nth much basically.
jus enjoying my life to th fullest.
be a follower dun be a leader.
it jus lead u to trouble.
currently doin SS, chiong all my hmwks.
left math corrections and SS.
haizzz ..................... how too dooo tiss projecttt ??
i gave up. ;p

i dont care
i don wanna knw
i hav enough of scarsm
tis life is killing me.
might as well take a knife and kill me.
im always the last.
beyond words.
thanks.
** & **** *** ******d

fucker.

2009-05-26T22:04:00.003+08:00

bad day
u ppl all cn jus do wht u wan.
i aint gonna take any considerations.
jus thanks okayy wit the inverted commas.
hate me all u ppl want.

patience has its limits

2009-05-25T21:15:00.004+08:00

heyy im tiredd jus came back frm HTA
gt shooting course. was fun though.
now currently doin the 4 flow chart fr SS.
goshh im superb dead.
haiz
endure a long week. last week. cant wait to end tis hell
tmr still gt trainings and bla bla bla.. what i want is jus to skip everythin and start holiday.
im gonna do plannings fr holidays
courses, npcc trainings, camps.
thts basiclly all nth more tt i cn tink of.
busy month bt im happi enough.

This is a new beginning. this is a new melody. this is a new surprises.
nvr fails to surprise me. 'thanks.'

i dont need all tis shit okayy.
jus go and die okayy ?

Ohs Sundayy !

2009-05-24T20:13:00.004+08:00

heloos
indeed today is sunday and the day is gonna be over in a few hours time.
nothing done much today its jus a normal day.
looking forward fr tmr cause gt pre-shooting course, before the actual competition.
well oh well jus a new start of the week
hectic andd busy.
tmr cn skip the first IT or what so ever course, its th first lesson though.
today basicly went to visit mydearest Atika, ohh hunny gt well soon aite. i'd pray fr u (:
still tired aft ystd Qiam.
cnt wait fr the camp next week. meeting those peeps. ilovethem !
hahas okayy miss kak azuraa, kak ayu && azilaa.
okayy back to story,aft that went to beach road and alter all the new uniform suchh a trouble !
yay cnt waittt to go to Perakk ! whee fun2
$299 flyy liao
bt nvm (:
ohh what elsee ? nth much jus boring journey aft tt.
wont eleborate more.
i tink i love tis blog skin best soo cool.
lol, nt doin all hmwk.
jus basically lasy.
post exam mood..

Baby youre all that I wan

tWhen youre lyin here in my arms

Im findin it hard to believe

Were in heaven

And love is all that I need

And I found it there in your heart

2009-05-23T17:58:00.002+08:00

Awwww damnnn tiredd. didnt sleep last nightt.
walk here and there.
tiredddd sia
results sucks as usual bt lucky passed all subjects. 3 As the rest Cs. shiiit bloody lousy
holidaysss gonna be great. goin Perak fr overseas trip yay !! .. && got some courses. aft tt nth much
bt mayb gonna go out sometimes. alr plann it
fun2 yeah !
no slackin during hols, study study study. Dont say its boring, its fun okayy.
gtg byeee !

Mind ur own business.

u nvr will understnd.

2009-05-20T21:41:00.006+08:00

heloo.
my day was better today. atleast much2 better.
still cnt gt over yesterday, everythng that i gt and the truthh.
goshh flunk 2 major papers , feel like wan to kill myself
other subject pass badly. argh.
then now veryy busy wif CCAs and other stuff.
not at home everyday.
go out go out yay. im lovin it.
thx guys!.
ermm 2.4 was like toot, i ran like crawl, fuck soo soo slow sia, waht happen to me i dunno.
i becoming lousier each day, performance geting wrst
attitude become like a mute person. i love to keep quiet always.
sorry guys if i did anything wrong , pls do excuse me , i cnt cope up wif myself.
hope u understnd. esp Naz , sorry scolded u jus nw.
(:
okayy till here bb
ily!

silence is better thn anythin else. im nt blind
sometimes nth cn be help. i rather suffer alone.
i hate myself. im regreting .
everyone notice , i pretend to ignore.
jus live wif it till end.
endure the pain and leave it alone.
pretend it nvr happen. pretend its invisible.
i jus cnt.
im sorry
i have to.

UNPLEASENT DAY

2009-05-19T20:05:00.005+08:00

Life is really unfair. whenver we do things properly we end up getting hurt. whenever u ignore things it would still be there like a shadow , haunt u each and everywhere. sometimes i jus figure when tis will ever gonna end. sometimes i feel jus like to giv up. i feel like stopin bt i cnt.
SUCKS SUCKS SUCKS SUCKS SUCKS SUCKS.
Curse every single thing around tt make my life miserable.
and stoppppppppp bugging me okayyy ??
enoughhhhh of the nonsence.
i have a really bad bad bad day.
hate it to the core.
lowest core of hell
. arghhhhhh thankkkss too _________*
and all the ___________*

fuck it up side down.
bla bla bla .
howw ?? i feel like goin awayyyy . farr awayyy. im jus getting worst each day.
efforts nt paid , words nt being listen.
shut up man.
fuck.
..............
tmr another hell.
bitch.
arghhh. cnt it jus be over ?
will i ever skip everythin ?
reborn and make all the bad mistakes and deed ive done
make a perfect like ? turn back time ? orr wake up frm tis hell nightmare ??
ohh realityy says noo. wad a freak.

SUCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK UPP OKAYYYYYYYYYYYYYY !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i jus dunn wanna get hurt by deceiving words && pretendance.

Wonderful memories

2009-05-18T19:28:00.005+08:00

Three ladiess(:

we worked hardd ! gd job guys

Suhaidah && Hidd

Blueee ppl!

Greenyyy ppl !

Mengs andd miee!

Lol pose sendiri.

Adekkuu..

Kak Azurahh !

Heyy guys 3 days wif all of u are really great. i enjoyed each and every moment. we laugh, we share, we work , we streess up tgt and its a memorable memories fr me. thanks fr every fun times. tgt wif the other guys && ladies . we rock. see u ppl soon. bond tgt and ROCK on!

2009-05-17T21:39:00.002+08:00

heyy ppls
jus came back frm mosque. goshh ling 5 tiring days in mosque. ohs ohs mannn..
hhahhs bt fun noe alot of new ppl. they're sooo damn friendly. and alot of things need to do.
the mosque is big.. hahhas jumper quite ramai org uh, bestie semue dtg. kak ayu pn whee shee preetyy lahss seii.
ermm fri was like soo pack and guys solat till the 4th level.
anyways i lovee the nasyid grp hahas sooo manyy talented guys. we walkd2 arnd till like dunno how many times.
tiredd man.
i'd post soon okayy. and upload the pics tmr.
okay nites!

2009-05-15T07:49:00.003+08:00

HEYYYYY hahas im postingg ! hahas.. ltr gonna go mosque , fr the opening wheee !! hahahs glamss
ystd had fun the whole dayy .. went JB shoping till drop frm morning. then aft that went back
arnd 5pm went to mosque till 1030. reach hm arnd 11.
whooo tis morning wass dreadfull to wake up tiredd.
hhhahas played like kids ystd.
currently listing to the "always be my baby"- david cook. so nostalgic yeah ?
hahs
karaokaying
lol. weirdd.
okayy gtg wanna dress up (:
cnt wait to see them.

2009-05-13T23:16:00.005+08:00

my gooodness dont life is any simpler ?
im sick of all this okayy. keeping quiet is easyy bt enduring it rather tough.
i dont need anymoree troubles or watevershit
soo stop giving me more irratations thank you !

Cause when I'm with him,I, am thinking of you,What you would do ifYou were the one ,who was spending the night,I wish that I,was looking into your eyes and stay...

by random

2009-05-09T12:48:00.004+08:00

Secret agenda.

2009-05-08T23:39:00.004+08:00

Heyy sorry for not updating for soo long. its been a long time. Main reasons are the exams.
mid year jus started bt ending soon enough. soo far i tink i study hard enough bt still could nt answer the qs, normal though haizz.. okayy enough fr mid year. Im leaving purely to fate.(:

I've change the blogskin andd all. Decided to keep it simple and personal. I'm nt gonna put the tagboard cox i dont think i need it(: so if u wanna to link me jus do so..

Sometimes somethings are just unspoken. it rather nt to be say out loud. life and death are nature that happen in life. complications, happiness, problems are another link of it. being around is fate. u walk through this road till you felt hopeless. its endless and became complicated each steps.
u cry, u shout, u scream for desperate help but wif no avail.
no one is around to help.
u just need to keep walking and nver giv up. leave everything to fate fr wht had destined.
never turn back,
never repeat,
never change ur path,
never do what u had already done.
its jus never ending. long and tiring. patience is the key. silence is the companion. destiny is the solution.
walk again and nver turn back.

2009-04-19T11:05:00.003+08:00

heloo ! long time nver postt!
blogg being LIFELESS
hahas okayy, now everything is all boring and same old routine each day
soo dead
exams are coming real soon
soo preparations tts all.
i've been tooo busyy as usual.
soo nt gonna post fr long animore
awww i miss Amalina && Nazurahh, didnt gt to follow to the NPAP ystd.
gt tuition bt even if dont i tink i also lazy to go, too tired
jus waiting fr the day tooo breathe.
gtg bye !

im soo tired,all abt tis heavy schedule, i need rest, real soon.

2009-04-09T23:43:00.003+08:00

I've just enjoying blogging cause im currently feeling totally bored right now. well mostly cause tmr is a holiday. It's not that i am trying to say that i hate holidays due to the fact that its boring, but im just gonna say im looking foward to tomorrow. Basically there is a few reasons why.
Firstly im goin jogging wif my sis, burn all those fats off and train for my Napha. Secondly tmr is indeed a memorable day, 11 month anniversary. Supposingly tmr is our one year anniversary bt well what do people say, things change for the better. It does indeed. Although there are tons and tons of assignments i ought to do bt i think i'd better take a time off tomorrow cause i seems to have my engine ongoing without rest. I dun want to fell sick again at the wrong time. No no situation.
These days Amalina and i seems to be having some irratations wif certain issues. pathetically to those who made us felt like rubbish, having some protest goin on in silence ?
it sounds wrong and certainly it is irratating. ohs jus shut up okayy.Being treated like (Insert some word ) i dun have any specific vocab that suits that space. Amalina pls fill it in fr me thank you.
ohs life is indeed full of surprises.
My sister came jus now and she gave me my belated present. wow shes really great.
she bought me a handphone chain that i longed for frm Chomel && a small GUESS sling bag.
I was delighted and veryy happy. Thank you sis fr ur present ! i love you.
okayy tell u ppl bout tmr ya ?
blg sooonn.

2009-04-09T22:45:00.003+08:00

heloo people
okayy im back to blogging nw.
yeah its late bt who cares
i've been busy tis week wif all my tests and CCAs, activities etc etc..
well yeahh tmr soo gonna be a HOLIDAY ~!
&& like finally i cn have some breather to relax
well plannings ? i swear nt gonna stay indoors.
SHOPPING ! wooo shop till drop
im gonna spent like hell tmr, common its nt as if i did tt every week
its like my first time real shop tmr tis year ?
soo yeah gonna need to enjoy myself
indulge in joyy woohoo..
who gonna be pathetic andd hardworking enough to stay at home ?
stupid isint it ? been studying all along and nt having rest.
awwwwwwwww pooorr me.
bt bt bt im sooo gonna miss my AMALINA darlinkkkk ! yeahhh tmr EXPOO.
indirect shoping wif her.
dun jealous PPL.
bsides, its an ideal way to shop.
who says i dun miss NAZURAH NN ATIKA ?
H.A.N.A always in my hearrtt.

ESPECIALLY my Hadii. (:
only 3 days though. tmr gonna be our 11th anniversary.
Happy advance Anniversary dear (:
i love hanging out wif them HANA && Hadii
who sayys having a bf cnt be tgt wif my darling Bffs ?
Amalinaa imyyy okayy alrr !
nw and forever tooo !
wheeeeee spent the whole day wif her and Nazz.. we did smth we Ought to do long ago
I FEEL RELIEVED OKAYY.
onlii if it was recorded.
i feel like typing non stopp
coz i relly feel happy && miss my dears

hhahahs yeahhh scapegoat a perfect wordd fr that
andd 3 days of peace and harmony i cn say.
no more aggitation each minute
or no more stressful facial expression i had to exchanged to Amalina
i bet we're SICK && TIRED of certain ppl.

ohs tmr gonna be a great dayyy..
whee hahas
okayy hope to get fully prepared fr next exams
im gonna study study study.
and be happy.
bt usually i cnt study in the morning
Amalin should knw why !(:

okayy till tmr !

2009-04-05T14:53:00.003+08:00

hey lovely rose,
u've grown with red spilled petals,
u look beautiful even when u're froze,
go bloom and swirls
it'd attract millions i guess

walking against the breeze
planning what i'd seized
all those things u've taken away
no i aint gonna let u go away

u showed me the sun
u gave me love
i took all the fun
and fell in love.

2009-04-05T14:35:00.003+08:00

woops sorry fr nt updating fr long time.
been veryy busy wif speechday rehearsals && tests
well finally and i meant finnalyy !
Speech day is OVER once and fr all.
its like we done soo well,
GUEST OF HONOUR contingent, we make PH NP unit proud !
we bang well execute all drill like a real silver unit.! wow && the best damn thing is im in the first row bside my bestie fr life. hahas tts a gd thing to be short okayy ppl.
yay nw im cn concentrate wif the mid year and 5 tests comin in 3 consecutive days tis up coming week.
phew ! hectic uh ?
okayy at least theres things i cn do to make me occupied.
soo well guess wad ? tmr is a start of a whole boring routine.
teestt test testt.
Amalina && I decided nt to gt involved. thats YOUR problem okayy ? dun drag us along. thank you.
(if u dun understnd thn dun try to)

okayy gtg i've gt tons of things pilled up.
making me crazy soon bt bt bt im cool , i cn manage well enough. i hope (:

__________________________________________
Heyy bitch jus get over my boy cn ? his mine and always be mine.
so dun look at me as if im at wrong.

2009-03-31T21:30:00.003+08:00

WOOOOHHH.!

nothing happen much in school though. as if.
ermm well short list post today sucks. needa clean the riffle range like hell. Nice one okayy !..

well wonder wad tmr would be, suppose tmr gt my long aft bdea celebrate bt many things had happen tdae, so i tink its alr over wads the point of celebrating ?
forget it furthermore tmr sure kena scolding alot again.
suck it okay.

TILL here. argh.

2009-03-29T21:07:00.002+08:00

LIFE SUCKS ! BIG TIME.

soooo pissed off ever since.
shut up okayy. sucker.

________________________
Dun worry syg i am okayy

2009-03-25T23:20:00.002+08:00

2009-03-25T22:55:00.004+08:00

3 things i am really sure off.

1. I've recovered fully, got my voice back.

2. My Darling Hadii get to be Vice-president offically today. March 25

3. I am soo turning SWEET 15 in a few hours time !! MARCH 26 2009. (:

yay. tis jus a short post. i gt math waiting fr me. && tmr's speech day which would ruin my Birthday. bt nvm at least the whole day spent time with my Dearest Hadi && BFFs. In particular : Amalina && Afiqah darling.

2009-03-23T22:35:00.003+08:00

Nothing to post. I'm sick ! Lost my voice !
I miss MY Hadiii sygg. awww terriblyy. he look soo damn gd in his haircut. aww meltss.(:

hmmm i lovee himm lotts !

3 MORE DAY TO MY SWEET 15 (: LOVEED

2009-03-22T22:38:00.001+08:00

love tis pic(:

2009-03-21T21:53:00.002+08:00

GREETINGS !

okayyy jus came back camp. and im superb dead tiredd. 3 camps beaten me off and finally i fell ill.
i was sick on the 1st day of camp and was asked to go home, at first i already had flu,
then aft all activities i kena fever. grrr.
NCO Aishah brought me to office blabla2 to check my temperature. well at first i was like soo cold and temp wad 35 degrees ?
lol go sick bay and rest. first time.
hahas
soo yeahh like soo pathetic, thn woke up i retake my temperature. shoot up to 38.1.
sooo wad else kena soo called kicked to go doc.
dad fetch me and brought to c doc.
Doc injected me and gave medcine, then next day go sch fr camp.
doo all activiities. bt best thing i claimed to be not under the casualties grp though i am
bt nvm.
hahas.
haix.
thx ppl fr helpn me.
recovering soon bt lost my voice. do drill wish a harsh voice lol.
ppl all laugh.

free entertainment.
(: arghh sleepy alr, jus eat my medicine.
thx to Amalina && Afiqah fr taking care of me. hahas i rmbred i also fell in the toilet cox dizzy lol. bt nth much. jus a joke out of it to me.
okayy gtg.

i miss my boifrenn siaa
.. haixx camp2. bt bt
NOW NCO alreadyy !!!!! wheee gd gd.
we'll serve the unit better. Inshallah(:

2009-03-18T14:06:00.004+08:00

TIME SAYS IT ALL.

Ohs im jus tired with all activities and the heavy load i had to endure this semester. camps are my holidays now and homeworks seems to be my shadow. i cant run away frm this reality but to face it and jus endure. bt isnt there any possible time fr me to rest ? im sure my frens too doo feel the pressure. SEC THREE life sucks. well tts somthing to start talking.
Let me tell you a story. :

A few decades ago live a young lady who dreamt of alot of things. She had tons of wishes, she wanted to live in a beautiful huge mansion. Castle-like deco and have the most stunning evening dresses. She wanted to dine with a handsome lad who came out of no where in his shinny armour.
However she doesnt have the power to do so. The only reason that made her believe she could achieve that is to believe in faith. One fine day, she met the love of her life. A hansome young man came towards her and asked for some advice. She was thrilled and could not utter a word. Hearing his velvet voice, the way he lean towards her while he talks, made her feets rooted to the ground and she couldnt catch her breathe. Thats where the fairytale starts and end wif happily ever after

2009-03-16T16:59:00.003+08:00

OHEEELLOOOOOOOO !

Sorry fr nt updating, been too busy this weeks. jus came back frm camps.
Had 3 camps in 2 weeks ! wth rite ?
plus2 trainings. im gonna find days to relax.
hopefully. im dead tired. camp track more thn 20km ? lol.

Nothing to say, tooo TIREDDD

_________________________________

Suddenly she'sLeaving
Suddenly thePromise of love has gone
Suddenly
Breathing seems so hard to do

Carefully you
Planned it
I got to know just
A minute to late, oh girl
now I understand it
All the times we
Made love together
Baby you were thinking of him

Why do I love you
Don't even want to
Why do I love you like I do
Like I always do
You should've told me
Why did you have to be untrue (love you like I do)
Why do I love you like I do

Ain't gonna show no
Weakness
I'm gonna smile
And tell the whole world I'm fine
I'm gonna keep my senses
But deep down
When no one can hear me
Baby I'll be crying for you

2009-03-08T21:24:00.001+08:00

.red rose. my sweetest drug.

2009-03-08T20:42:00.003+08:00

princess's diary..,

gosh jus hours to go and im in school again
its just like a fast foward routine. bt the fact that tmr i am not gonna study brings at least some joy in me.
although i am soo nt looking foward towards all the camps that falling onto me,
i had to tink positive.
yeah right tts the spirit, POSITIVE.
gosh fun times ahead !
first objective i wanna achieve.
1: wanna noe my dearest classmates better.
2: trash things out wif tt sec 1 girl tt had a crush omg my dearest boyfriend.
3: come back home in ONE piece as i had promised my dearest Hadii, Amalina,Atika(:

simple as it is.
soo its like todayy jus gonna be the last day im blogging
hopee too blog soon.
i lovee my life. its like getting exciting each day
wif my love ones.

HADI
AMALINA
ATIKA

2009-03-06T22:48:00.000+08:00

Nothing much to post.
get my chemistry. C.T results sucks && i soo dun wanna see my results.
tmr whole day nt at home. got alot of activities tmr.
Next week camp, yay see my beloved fr 3 days.
listen tt ppl, juniors get this straight dun mess up things okayy.(:
if u are soo into my boifee cm and see me && my bestie first lah okayy
jus cn go to hell, knw how to take his photo, his mine u dun get it isit ??
dun understnd eng tell me i cn teach u okay (:.

I MISS HADII..
I MISS AMALINA,ATIKA,AFIQAH
I MISS MYSELF.(:

Love is outa reachh, i count the days
you'll know tat i'd lost without your love.
stumbling in the dark, i dun knw where to start.
bby i love you thats all i can say (:

2009-03-05T21:18:00.001+08:00

OMG !
training was great && much better today cox finally the GOH contingent show our power !.
we rocks okayy.
tmr still gt Npcc gosshh till 7pm okay hell.
im too tired to even think and revise.
soo i listen to songs and slack.
my SS was great bt my Geog results SUCKS
.hell.
pfftt.
its terrible && im wondering how bad im gonna do fr chem
which im getting tmr.
oh man tis my my life
struggling hard bt still fall
if onli i cn fall and never wake up
jus wish.
next week 3 days camp
like wth im nt prepared, im still beaten wif the trainings
and hols instead of resting
gt 3 days or mayb 6 spent in sch.
fr wad ?
CAMP.
a hell camp YES tts wad i call it.
believe me i have alot to complain whn i cm bck.
guess wad today no hmwk
bt still gt SS weekend hmwk. tmr tons of others.
arghh i wish i cn get sick.
bt too bad my body immune is strong. hahas.

DEAR..
pls take care okayy
i wan to see u healthy and smilling again(:
iloveyou!

2009-03-02T21:14:00.000+08:00

My life nt as colouful since today.

Thats love.

A dayy with Darlink !

2009-03-02T20:42:00.000+08:00

Dear Diary... (lol)>
Words cant expressed how much i enjoyed todays hang out wif AMALINA darlink!
lett me tell u wad happen. by right suppose to have a meeting with the NCOs and other UGs fr the annual camp bt it was cancelled.
soo MY bestie was hungry and i accompanied her to eat LGS.
i didnt eat cox ystd eat alr. i knw it lame bt lol.
hahs we talk like nobody's business abt CURRENT AFFAIRS.
SS lah konon ?(: thn i decided to take bus wif her cox im worry of her safety if she went home alone.
hahas whee.(:
its jus been soo long since we talked. Didnt realise time had past.
i dun mind either spent the whole day, night with her.
my parnts wont mind either right Amalina ?
okayy basicaly today's lesson kinda dry cause gt most of the papers. GUESS wad i pass badly.
i feel hopeless. seriously all my effort gone to drain.

overall i hate myself fr being such a toot.

2009-03-01T21:36:00.000+08:00

MARCH FIRST ;)

once apon a time
i ran away from reality
no it not a crime
but a game of fantasy (:

_________________________

i loveeee todayyy
i overslept and woke up arnd 9 plus ? haizz sleep late again lah.
then do hmwk till noon then aft 1.30 pm my prnts brg me out.
yay finally cn go out aft soo long being suffocated by books.
hahas i plann nt to eat much bt my mum brg to a restaurant in Arab street, eat egyptian dish. cool uh?
i chose my food well okayy still watch my diet. fish lol
hahas
soo full till i didnt eat dinner.

next stop Bugis BHG.
was packed with human beings. why ? Cause thes a major sale goin on.
mummy bought me two tops.
hahas wheee (: veryy nicee u noe.
pink and blue.
veri cute also.
she bought herself perfume (:

thn3 went head back home.
Looking foward to tmr.
i wan meet AMALINA && HADIIDEARR